Final Up to date on September 13, 2024 by Joshua Isibor
FIRELIGHTER
fifteenth April 2019.
It was noon when Kenny woke with a dreadful hangover. The day prior to this had been awfully lengthy and wasted with empty bottles of whiskey littered round. Though mild bulbs glowed, a darkish facet of vacancy engulfed the whole room. He was mendacity sprawled in mattress, his head throbbed painfully, and a celebration went on in his abdomen. Emotions enveloped him; nausea, grief, vacancy……….His telephone beeped. There have been two WhatsApp texts. The primary from LEAD man. It learn: Pricey Kenny, we now have agreed to your request for an nameless remedy. We forwarded your particulars to the therapist that shall be in command of you. “In command of me? foolish!”, he frowned. We guarantee you that no matter that shall be mentioned stays between you and the therapist assigned to you. We consider in you and that you would be able to Reside On a regular basis Above Despair. The opposite, from an unnamed quantity: Hello. Good day. I’m your nameless therapist. Good to fulfill you. He left the chat background to the particular person’s profile. No profile image. What have you learnt about me? He typed. Simply your title, Kenny. Was the reply. What’s your title? He typed once more. Name me Firelighter. “Let’s do this Ikenna”, he stated to himself with a pinched ironic smile and held the telephone for some time. The room was nonetheless, besides the whistling sound from the rotating ceiling fan.
twenty sixth Might 2019.
Dajuamobi
I wakened late like I did each Saturday. After a collection of devotion and brief prayers, I dragged myself to the kitchen and lit the burner. Yesterday had been hectic, and my cluttered room confirmed scattered recordsdata, sheets, and garments on the ground, and Rachel Hogan’s GIRL WASH YOUR FACE with Gary Chapman’s THE FIVE LOVE LANGUAGES FOR SINGLES laid open on my mattress. In jiffy, I gave my room a deserved cleansing and busied myself by my desk sipping honeyed lime tea ( my sister’s weight reduction recipe) whereas writing for a weblog on SIGNS THAT YOU ARE NOT READY TO DATE. I questioned why I selected the subject, maybe to show to myself or what? I hissed, reached for my telephone, and switched on my knowledge connection. Whatsapp messages flooded in. MOM: I’ve organized foodstuffs for you and Lemechi. I’ll waybill yours subsequent week. Hope you might be nicely? I replied: Thanks mother (smiley emoticon). I like you. I obtained two new jobs as a freelance author. Inform dad, he’ll be proud. Nwaelemechi: Dajuamobi. Add ginger to the lime tea. It hastens the method, particularly along with your horrible stomach fats. I turned to my brown mug and the scented steam from it. I wasn’t so shocked by my sister’s taunts. I didn’t reply and by no means drank lime tea after that day. Kathy: Thanks ma’am, I attempted it out. I didn’t lose out on something as you stated. I’ll inform you the small print later…….Excellent Kath (thumb up emoticon). I’m completely satisfied for you. Let’s discuss later. Bestie: What!! Since when? And also you’re simply telling me. Received’t he discover out?. However actually D.J, are you okay with this? I do know that you’ve got at all times liked him. I smiled. Gentle bulbs went on, making my room indulge in its brightness. I stood, plugged in my laptop computer, and performed Sia’s UNSTOPPABLE. Again to my telephone, I replied: Chii, I do know it’s loopy, however I’ll be high quality. Moreover, I’m being skilled. He gained’t discover out, so I assume all the pieces shall be high quality. “All shall be high quality”, I whispered. The final message was from him. Kenny: I resumed work at this time to host my program. I missed it. I missed life. Mother and Dad are continuing with the divorce. They need to have finished that way back, maybe Steph wouldn’t have died. I gained’t maintain holding unto the previous. How are you doing Firelighter? When are you going to inform me your actual title and present me your image? I shouldn’t have requested anonymity. Have an ideal day. I’m good Kenny. I’m glad that you just’re enhancing. I’d tune in to listen to your voice on the air. Hope you learn the e book? All the perfect. My eyes moved to my wall planner and noticed a poem I had written months in the past. I despatched him the poem in his early days of remedy. He was open and it helped. But I wished to do extra however couldn’t. Kenny was part of my life that had been untouched for a yr now. Chii’s phrases now rang in my head. I’ll be high quality. I assured myself. “You’ve obtained this Dajua. You do”. I plugged in my telephone.
Kenny
By 2 pm, I clocked out and headed dwelling. I don’t drive, it triggers my PTSD, so I boarded a cab. I used to be on the backseat after I obtained a textual content from Dad: We’ll be in courtroom on Monday. Your mom blames me for Steph’s dying. It’s best to come. The experience was a bumpy one because the wet season set in, and I questioned, as we rode by way of cracked roads, how I may ever love two individuals hell-bent on destroying one another after destroying Steph’s life. Firelighter had informed me to hunt love by way of giving love. To like my mother and father nonetheless, utilizing their love language, for my peace of thoughts.
I learn THE FIVE LOVE LANGUAGES FOR SINGLES by Gary Chapman she had really helpful. I found out my love language and wished to know hers, however I couldn’t ask. It was inappropriate. The previous 5 weeks had been superior and I shouldn’t destroy it. I picked my telephone from the chair and browse her messages. Thanks, ma’am(Coronary heart emoticon). I’m nonetheless studying the e book. I’ve obtained information from Dad. They’ll be in courtroom tomorrow. Are you busy? Let’s discuss by way of WhatsApp name.
She was on-line.
Sorry, Kenny, We are able to’t do calls. Hope you’re good? Will you attend the courtroom listening to?
Why can’t we? I’m good, thanks. I’ll go provided that you include me as a assist system.
This remedy session is nameless, bear in mind? And I’ve a program to attend on Monday. It’s a charity occasion on the Marian Convection middle.
Does it exclude calls? I heard about this system on air, I’ll come to see you.
Silence
Firelighter? Are you there?
She went offline.
Take care.
***
Dajuamobi
“So he nonetheless doesn’t know?”, Chii requested by the kitchen counter. Her arms over the utensils cabinet. “No”, I replied. “How lengthy do you propose to cover this?”, she was opening the fridge now.” Bia don’t you’ve meals right here?”. “I ran out of meals. I may meet him tomorrow on the conference middle”. “What did you eat this morning?”, she requested, taking a look at me now. “Yale bread with Akara and a cup of Cowbell instantaneous espresso”. I reached out to a plastic container on the counter and saved it in a dish rack. She smiled. “Look Daj, I’m not towards you serving to Kenny. Simply don’t get your hopes up about him, he by no means liked you Dajua, not as you wished”, she stated, stuffed with concern. “I do know.” I fought again the tears.” I gained’t”.Chii nodded whereas I remembered how I’d cry on her shoulder each time Kenny selected different women over me. I used to be younger again then. So younger and naive. On Monday, I left early with my crew to conduct an interview with the founders of the charity group. After that, we stayed behind to take extra photos throughout the occasion. I noticed Kenny enter the corridor simply because the chairman was about to present the opening deal with. He stood tall and firmly constructed, carrying denims trousers with a black turtleneck sweatshirt that clung to his physique like a second pores and skin, making him look irresistibly good-looking though trying informal. He was trying round, turning his well-sculptured face across the total corridor whereas I stood afar, watching, lacking, and hating him altogether. He despatched a textual content. Hey, the place are you? I’m on the occasion. Please, let’s meet up. I wished to answer: cease stretching your neck, I see you, however I remembered I wasn’t alleged to know him. He known as my quantity a number of instances however I ignored them, making an attempt to assemble contents for the weblog put up tomorrow. Prior to now I had at all times waited for him; a pitiful lovelorn, so I made him wait until the occasion ended. I walked in the direction of him and gently tapped his again. I noticed the uncooked pleasure in his eyes, the thrill of seeing an unknown Firelighter, I noticed it remodel into a nice shock because the bridge of his nostril squeezed and his cheeks lifted on the sight of me. “Daj! wow, very long time”, He leaped ahead and gave me a fast and honest hug. The corridor was bustling. “Kenny, what a nice shock! How have you ever been?”. “I’m good, How’s Lemechi and your mother and father?”, “They’re good. What brings you right here?”, “I’m right here to see somebody, I obtained to seek out her now”, his eyes roving across the corridor. “Oh, okay. It feels good to see you “, my eyes mounted on him. “What about you?”, he turned to me.” You keep on this metropolis, proper?” “Yeah, I do”. “Gimme your quantity, we must always catch up”, he stated. I sensed hassle. “No, Gimme yours”. I shot again, nearly interrupting him. He agreed, calling the numbers and I typed. “I’ve to go to Daj. I missed you” He sighed. ” I missed everybody, I actually did”.name me, he gestured, l nodded, he smiled and walked away. I watched him. His eyes searched, his telephone held firmly to his proper ear whereas mine ringed on my hand. A textual content got here after the sixth ring.
The place are you?
I really noticed you Kenny, however you left too rapidly.
What do you imply? I’m nonetheless right here. The place are you?
Did you really consider that? Hahaha. I’m busy Kenny. There are tons of issues left to do. I can’t meet with you. I’m sorry.
I went offline.
Later that night time. He texted. Let’s discuss, I’ll name. And for a second I couldn’t assume. Please. He texted once more. The request was easy. Each a part of me desirous to oblige, I opened my purse and took out three wraps of bubblegum. I tore it open and chewed.
“Hey Kenny “, I stated to myself. I couldn’t acknowledge my voice. The voice trick labored.
Okay. I texted again.
Kenny
I spoke with Firelighter for hours and laughed rather a lot throughout our dialog. I additionally obtained to find out about her involvement with the LEAD challenge. I used to be shocked to know that she wasn’t a psychotherapist however an avid volunteer, but she’s so good at what she does. My time together with her on-line was extra of a coronary heart to coronary heart dialog than a Q&A session. She knew each proper factor to say and he or she at all times considered prospects, particularly with me having the ability to drive once more. I used to be so intrigued about her and why she had chosen to be known as Firelighter.
“As a result of I’m igniting that fireside in you, Kenny. That misplaced zeal and keenness for all times”, she stated at her finish. I smiled at her response.
“Are you married ?” I requested.
“No. Why do you ask?”, I may sense the stress in her voice.
” You’re taken? I imply, You have got somebody?”
Silence.
“Hey?”
She yawned. It needed to be a pretend yawn.
“Let’s name it an evening Kenny. I’m drained”.
“Okay, however please inform me your title. At the very least”
“Goodnight Kenny”.
She hung up. I despatched her a textual content.
No matter your title is, you’re particular. I testify to that. Goodnight.
seventh June 2019.
This dreaded day got here. I stared at her photos. She was vigorous then. I checked out a humorous image of her holding my head tightly when Mother despatched a textual content.
Ikenna. I’ll be sending flowers to her grave. It’s best to come. You’ll be able to’t maintain working away from everybody.
Steph, my sister, was separated from the love of her life by my mother and father, and as if that wasn’t sufficient, she misplaced her being pregnant. She turned so depressed and contemplated suicide. I took her in my automotive as we drove downtown.
“Put your foot down Kenny”, she stated to me.
“Why ?”, I requested.
” I like the sensation of the breeze on my face”.
So I sped to make her completely satisfied. In a second, she flung the automotive door and dashed out. Earlier than I caught information of what was occurring, I may solely see items of her garments from the wing mirror and a gathering crowd.
Emotions flooded now. Guilt was paramount. I texted Firelighter.
Steph died on this date final yr. It’s my fault. I helped her take her personal life. I’ll be going away. I want distractions.
Will you be high quality? She replied instantly.
I don’t know.
Kenny. You’ve obtained this. The place will you go?
Tradition park by Freeway.
I ran into Dajua on the park. We sat, talked, reminisced, laughed, and cried. She held out her arms, gesturing a hug. I rushed into them and he or she patted my again, lovingly.
“You’ve obtained this Kenny”, she stated, and for a second I wanted she was Firelighter. I drew barely away from the heat of her embrace, staring into her eyes, remembering how fiercely she had liked me. I regretted turning her down, preserving her within the buddy zone. I regretted reducing everybody out. Grief had turned me right into a solitaire.
“I’m sorry for dropping contact with everybody, I simply wished to be alone again then”.
She smiled, tilting her head sideways.
“I liked you Daj, however I didn’t need to damage you. Again then I used to be silly and a nasty boy in an excellent boy’s garments. You have been simply too good for me”.
“What are you now? A very good boy in a nasty boy’s garments?”. She laughed.
“Why did you come Dajua? Why did you come for me?”, I checked out her brown eyes; bemused, looking for solutions. I didn’t give her the possibility. I drew her shut and kissed her fervently.
twelfth June 2019.
Dajuamobi
“It’s me”, stated a voice exterior the door. I opened up. It was Kenny, all smiles, holding a white nylon bag in hand. I used to be finished for. After the day we kissed. I known as him with my different quantity and we spoke day by day. He requested for my home deal with and I texted him. I by no means on this planet thought he would present up and not using a heads up.
“Hey, can I are available in? You appear like you’ve seen a ghost”. I stepped away and he got here in.” You’ve obtained a pleasant room Daj”.he stated, trying round.
“Thanks, the rooms on this neighborhood are fairly cozy”, I stated whereas accumulating the bag from him. I used to be making an attempt to start out a dialog, to get his eyes away from one thing which may remind him of Firelighter.
Kenny
I obtained drawn to her wall planner. It had colourful postcards with phrases on it, every held to the picket body with a pushpin. I went nearer to have a look.
“What do I give you, Kenny? Hey, the place are you going? She requested, nearly shouting.
I used to be about to reply when one thing struck me. One thing fairly acquainted.
The place’s your mild? When comely days turns to bloody nights…………
Firelighter’s poem. I turned to Dajua. She was proper behind me.
“This poem?”
“Erm. .Erm..”, She was tensed and I sensed it. I appeared round and noticed one thing else on her bookshelf by the wall. I reached for it. A framed certificates of LEAD PROJECT bearing her title. One thing wasn’t proper.
“So you already know LEAD PROJECT?”.I requested her. I noticed the horror in her eyes. She tried calling my title however the phrases trailed off.
“You already know this poem, You’re a member of the LEAD challenge, what else ?”. It was getting clearer now.”Aha, You have been there on the conference ….. and..”. I felt totally silly.
“I’m Firelighter”, she stated, her eyes, teary.
“So it was all a lie? All the things was a joke to you?”.
“No”, she reached for my hand however I hesitated.”Once you took off after Steph died I used to be so fearful about you. You had modified your traces and I couldn’t attain you. I didn’t comprehend it was you until I noticed Steph’s image in your profile and I couldn’t inform you as a result of I wished to be shut. I wished to assist. I wished you to be high quality”. She stated amidst sobs.
“There’s a fish barbecue within the bag, Take pleasure in”, I stated, simply earlier than strolling out.
Dajuamobi
I ready for work the next morning. The earlier night time had been tearful and a busy day awaited me with a lot work. I used to be locking my door after I heard his voice.
“Hey Firelighter”.
I didn’t know whether or not to smile or cry. “I’m sorry”.
He got here nearer. “I’m sorry too, You needed to eat the fish all by your self”. I smiled. He was two inches away from me now.”I’ve been desirous to ask your major love language”, he stated, grinning ear to ear.
“Bodily contact”, I informed him.
“Oh yeah?”, He squeezed me to himself, tucking my hair behind along with his center finger. “I’m sorry about yesterday. You’ve at all times wished my good Dajua. At all times”. His arms have been nonetheless wrapped round me. I smiled, putting my head on his chest. Work may wait. This was the place I wished to be.
***
“You’re positive?”, She requested him.
He chuckled.” Didn’t you at all times speak about prospects?” He reached for her hand.”I plan to make today memorable, so don’t fear”. He was kissing her fingers now.
” I’m pleased with you Kenny”, she stated.
“Thanks Daj. Thanks for all the pieces”.He stated, watching her.” I like you “.
She smiled sweetly.
“Let’s go?”, he drew again, holding out his hand.
“Let’s go” She nodded, her hand on his. He led her out of her office to a brand new blue convertible. He opened the door and he or she muttered a thanks, smiling at him. Inside seconds, he kicked the engine to life and the automotive zoomed off.
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